| I need a rainy day |
[28 Sep 2006|07:28pm] |
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Anyway something very dramatic happened at school yesterday, I don't really want to get into it but some girl was attacked by another girl who had a razor blade. (there was a lot of blood) My teacher for that block was nearby when it happened, and saw the whole thing. 5 People in my class knew both girls very well, and most of the people in my class had at least met them, one was even related to the girl who was initially attacked. A quarter of the class was sent to guidance. I felt like I was right in the middle of it. Which is strange because it had nothing to do with me once so ever. *shrugs* It seemed the entire school was talking about the fight. Our school was even on the news and in the paper. Some girls were talking about how they didn't feel safe but, this isn't like random violence. Those two girls have been fighting for over a year, they got in a serious fight last week too.
I made some serious decisions about my "situation" with my old friends. Even though I've known them for a very long time, they are bad for me. Yeah, Yeah, I sound snobbish but seriously they have no self esteem, sleep around,do drugs, and *pauses* they don't know me, they don't understand me, they aren't like me atall. I can't relax and be myself. I can't just sit and talk about whatever. I suppose right now what I want more than anything is a friend. I've known them for years but, really I barely know them at all. Thinking about this, makes part of me want to run away, where the world can't see me. How childish am I? Oh, well if I want new friends I should just go out and make them right? ~TTFN
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